[B]BIG update July 21st, 2013 - Please read everything, a lot has changed.[/B] Hi! I’m Michelle, a conflicted and shy part-time bisexual crossdresser. I have a pretty good idea of what my "dream life" would be like, but the real world isn't really playing nice at the moment, so for the time being I'm doing what I can. In everyday life, to look at me you'd think I'm just a typical young professional guy but beneath my suits, jeans, tees, and button-down shirts, there's at least one feminine thing going on - My almost-always-in belly ring is usually paired with cute panties, and sometimes painted toenails, or stockings with a garter, or maybe even a bra. I try to get fully dressed up, with wig and makeup, at least once or twice a month, but that's unfortunately not always possible. And though I've had positive experiences the few times I've been out in public, I don't really think I'm all that passable, but you be the judge. I am willing to go out to public places while dressed, depending on where/what it is, and have been getting much more comfortable with it in recent times. My non-sexual interests/activities include cars (I love both driving and working on them), amusement parks, firearms, politics, video games, philosophy, cycling, finding cool local bars, football (Go Ravens!), fashion, gambling, going to the beach/boardwalks, and of course shopping! Sexually, I find myself much more attracted to guys, and have been wanting to try actually dating a guy. With men, I am a complete bottom, taking the “girl’s role” and that prefer that my “clitty” be pretty much left alone. I’m capable of cumming just from getting fucked, and if don’t every time that’s okay too. I enjoy everything from sweet, passionate lovemaking to being used by multiple guys (I’ve recently discovered how awesome adult theaters can be), it all depends on the situation. I definitely enjoy being on the receiving end of light bondage and spanking, but the harder aspects of BDSM really aren’t my thing. Though I describe myself as bisexual, I feel this requires clarification: I still appreciate the attractiveness of women, and am not opposed to being with one as another girl, but I have no confidence in my ability to please one as a “real man” can. I’ve more or less given up on having an exclusive relationship with a woman, but more girlfriends to hang out and do all the girly things I’ve missed out on or help me learn the ways is always nice. Please read the below sections too, and if you like what you see feel free to send a message. I will respond to all messages received, even if just to say that I have no interested. If you’re only a standard member, send a Flirt and I’ll at respond with my full profile so you can read all this and send a proper message. Thanks! <3 Michelle [B][U]Absolute Deal-Breakers[/U][/B] [B]READ THIS! If any of the below (presented in no particular order) apply to you, please spare us both the time and don't bother trying to get together with me in a sexual way - the chances of me deviating from these "deal-breakers" are slim to none. That said, if these apply and you Want to message me for friendship or to discuss life, love, and existentialism? Fire away.[/B] -If you expect me to go to public venues in Delaware en femme. Everyone knows everyone in this state, and at this point I cannot risk this side of me coming out at work. -If you have a small dick and overly large belly/legs. Apologies to my BHMs out there, but when combined with my booty, the mechanics just don't work. For that matter, if you have small dick period. Note that I consider under 5" long and/or less than 1.5” across to be "small." I'm no size queen, but I know what I like. -If you have any interest whatsoever in using my "clitty" as a cock - this includes penetrating someone else, being sucked or jerked…pretty much anything beyond rubbing it while its tucked. Yes, it's there. Yes, it's functional. No, I have no intention (at this time) of ever chopping it off regardless of how far I transition. None of that changes the fact that I don't enjoy using it, especially with men. -If you're married and your spouse doesn't endorse you playing on the side. Seriously, it's fucked up. If you're unhappy, leave or at least have the discussion. I do not need potential drama if your lies ever catch up to you. -If you have any involvement whatsoever in any illegal drugs or other illegal activity. I don't care if it's legal in Colorado, this includes marijuana until the Feds and states I'd actually be in decide to join the 21st century. This does include outdoor sex or "car fun" too, especially if it's arranged. While spontaneous hooking up in a potentially-exposed place can be hot, I'm certainly not going make a whole plan around it. -Other trans-identified individuals. I'm all for talking about fashion, makeup, transitioning, or life in general, but I'm not up for any sort of sexual activity. This may seem hypocritical, but I'm just not attracted like that, sorry. -If you have any communicable disease and/or are not willing to play safe for intercourse. I do love getting it bareback and feeling a guy cum inside me, but I will almost require seeing test results to trust you enough for that. This should go without saying, but people are fucked up. -You expect me to jump right in to an exclusive situation after X number of dates/hookups. I'm not closed to the idea, but I don't see myself wanting anything exclusive in the near future...I still have too much exploring and figuring-this-out to do. -You're incapable of forming full coherent sentences, without using text-speak, or remembering minor details about me after having several conversations. As you might have gathered from the way this profile is written, I'm no idiot, and expect at least a functional level of intelligence from my partners. This also applies to how you've filled in your profile; I understand the need for discretion and not going into specifics, but if all you list is "I enjoy living life to the fullest" or "Looking for a good time," yeah, you can do better. -You’re a bleeding-heart liberal who believes more government intervention/assistance is the answer to everything. We will not get along. For reference, I consider myself libertarian, and believe the less government gets their hands in the better, from a per’s lifestyle choices to their bank accounts. [B][U]On Being Submissive...[/U][/B] The astute will notice that I describe myself as "submissive" in this profile in one way or another. This applies pretty much exclusively in the bedroom, or in non-extreme ways such as allowing my date to pick the movie or things like that. I am hardly a lifestyle submissive, and even sexually I don't go "all out" with it. I certainly enjoy it when my partner has a "take charge" attitude, but no thanks to insistence on calling them a specific name/title all the time or forcing me to do things I don't enjoy. Do I need to get tied up and/or fucked like a ragdoll from time to time? Sure, but that doesn't mean I'm going to let you take a dump on my chest just because you told me to. I realize this may not make sense, but I see dominance and submission as a spectrum, where I fall just slightly to the submissive side of center. Feel free to inquire further and I may be able to explain it better in active dialogue. [B[U]]Other Fun Facts[/U][/B] -I have an utmost need for discretion due to my professional life; if this side of me were to be discovered it would likely kill my career. While I might be okay with that in the future, right now I have too many obligations to throw it away. For that rea, I am very hesitant to meet with anyone who lives or works in Delaware (everyone seems to know everyone), am extremely selective about who I will invite to my home. -I am not comfortable being photographed or recorded using anything other than my camera. Any photos that I ever post or send will sufficiently hide my identity; for example, don't ever expect a face photo that's clearer than the one that's up there now. Even that was a huge confidence step for me. -My schedule is very hectic. Though I normally work a traditional Monday-to-Friday grind and am free weekends, this isn't always the case. Advanced planning is almost always required, also because... -It takes time to get pretty. Shaving, proper inside-preparation, etc., takes a lot of time and effort. And it doesn't always work...without getting too graphic, sometimes my body refuses cooperate with what I want. This means that sometimes I might have to cancel last minute, or not be able to do all of the things we originally talked about. -I do not have a Webcam, nor will I likely ever. Yes, they're cheap. No, I'm not willing to build an elaborate structure of curtains to hide the background of my home that would show through on a cam. -I don't check this site every day. If I don't get back to you immediately, don't take it perally, or view it as an invitation to send repeated messages. -I thoroughly enjoy my drink and am a regular cigarette smoker. If you prefer, I am fine not doing either around you, but if they are deal-breakers for you, so be it. -If I don't like something about you or your lifestyle, it may be a deal-breaker. This is not intended as a peral judgment or commentary on you as a per, but everyone has their own interests and tolerances. [U][/U][U][/U][U][/U]

Mi persona ideal: Note that this says “ideal.” What I’m about to describe is my “dream match,” and I fully realize that finding all of these things in one person may be entirely unrealistic, but if you meet any of this description please message me.
-Physical: A guy 5’10” or taller (I’m short and like my men to be taller than me even when I’m in heels), with a build ranging from slightly-chubby to muscle-bound. Body hair doesn’t bother me, and can be sexy, but please shaved or at least trimmed fun-bits (nobody likes hair in their mouth). Race truly doesn’t matter, but I’m historically attracted to white, black, and latino men.
-Education/Professional: A college degree doesn’t matter, but not a moron. Be able to carry on a conversation. Have a decent job (I’m no gold-digger but I’m not always paying for everything) and some means of transportation.
-Behavior/Attitude: Confident, even bordering on cocky. Enjoy going out and having fun. Those who participate in “thug life” need not apply. Willing and able to treat me like a real lady in the streets and cheap whore in the sheets, though I do also enjoy sweet lovemaking too.
-Activities: Be interested in at least a few of the same things I am, and be willing to take me out in public.
-Sexually: All-top, or verse and willing to only be a top with me. Decently endowed and knows how to use it. Someone who equally loves receiving oral, pounding a tight asspussy, and making out like high-schoolers. Understanding of my feelings regarding my “clitty.”
-Relationships: Single, part of a couple who plays together, or in a relationship where outside playing is known and permitted. Open to the idea of group situations and me being with other people while we’re dating. Open to the possibility of something long-term and exclusive, but not expecting it right away.

¿Con qué sitio fantaseas para tener un encuentro sexual?:
La cama, Una montaña rusa, La playa, Un vehículo en movimiento (ej. automóvil), En medio de un parque, Un avión, Un callejón oscuro, Un cine, Las gradas en un evento deportivo, Un lugar remoto y salvaje, Bajo una cascada, Una piscina o bañera caliente, El probador de ropa en una tienda, Un ascensor, Una habitación de hotel

¿Qué tipo de actividades sexuales te calientan?:
Dar sexo oral, Sexo anal, Juguetes (vibradores/dildos/etc.), Beso negro, Fetiches, Bondage ligero, Azotes, Juego de roles, Tríos, Intercambio de ropa, Juego con alimentos, Filmar "Películas" caseras, Participar en fotografía erótica, Esposas/grilletes, Vendar los ojos, Masajes

¿Qué factores te son los mas importantes a la hora de buscar un compañero sexual?:
Atracción física, Fetiches iguales/parecidos, Experiencia en cierto rol (activo/pasivo; amo/esclavo), Habilidad para ser discreto, Apetito sexual, Libre disposición a discutir y probar lo que sea, Conforme a un compromiso de relaciones sexuales abiertas

¿Has tenido cibersexo alguna vez?:
Lo he intentado pero no es lo mismo.

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